exposed cerebral cortex of a proletariat bike slut

and again, it happens.

yet another relationship that will never get past initial predilections to closeness because he is intimidated by me and feels a need to put me down.  I can’t speak latin, I know nothing about ancient history, football, acting, have no sense of balance and coordination…yet I am not at all intimidated by any of this.  I love that when we go out and meet other couples, he can defend ANY idea when the subject turns to religion or history.  I love that he talks to me in latin, and I don’t understand a word of it.  And so many other things that he is so much better at than I could ever hope…

but when the conversation turns world issues, politics, NGOs, travel, ethics issues, or anything that I am interested in…he shuts me down completely and withdraws all support or admiration.  It has been escalating more and more, and now it is getting to the point of absurdity.  When I told him that I was nervous about Model UN, he said not to worry because no one listens to the united arab emirates anyway…and when I talked about how I needed to do well in order to go to New York, he again told me not to worry because the chance that I would be able to go was minuscule.

Really though? How the fuck would he know?  He doesn’t know Resolution 1888 and 1889.  I do.  He doesn’t know the UAE’s stance on issues…I researched it.  Not that I was great, I still have much to learn about being a delegate.  But Jesus, who DOES know everything about what they are doing all the time? And when I was moved to group leader in my sustainability club (which is a HUGE deal because it means that I will have a much higher chance of getting personal funding for the trip)..he barely gave me a high five, and assumed I just got it because I asked for it. Actually, I got it BECAUSE I took the lead in the health group, hosted the parties, talked to the foundation, went to the meetings, got the tax code for the entire club’s fund raising activities.  All while keeping 2 A’s and a B, organizing events for BAP, working 24 hours a week, and preparing for NWMUN.  Not to mention hanging out with friends, family, muy thai…not that I’m amazing, I definitely have an incredible amount to learn, and happen to be VERY SHITTY at A LOT of things.  But when I do succeed and want to talk about it, he doesn’t want to.

I’m so tired of the passive aggressive, “Business majors are a joke” (said in his living room while studying one night with a bunch of friends.. I was cuddling with him and reading stats)…the “Politics never changes, and all politicians are pieces of shit..”, and “the UN is a joke that never does anything” ( true, but I still enjoy Model UN immensely).

this isn’t the first time. when will I be able to date a man who can just be OK with the fact that I am a very motivated woman with some interests that he won’t share, and that I will succeed occasionally?